Its Day6, 3pm here on Wednesday, May 27th in Thailand. Tomorrow is the big day... The day the Dr. removes all the packing & the catheter and dilates me for the first time.
It takes an incredible amount of energy to even blog for a few minutes. looking at the screen is blinding right now. Adarabeth has helped answer some emails for me but it is to much for me to do so now.
I have some really great photo's to share, however, I have decided out of the respect for my loved ones not to post any until I am home safely or in a more healthier looking manor. My family is worried sick and I pry for them - so I do not want them to see me this way until I am home in their arms safely that they can know I am ok.
My face is starting to look normal again except with a nice fem profile of forehead and eyes. I cried all night just looking at it .... was like a dream come true to finally see what I always knew was there... now everyone else can too.
siting up is almost impossible to difficult for more than a few moments - if your post-op or had a baby then you know what I am talking about.
The drugs they give keep you dizzy and its are to focus... I lost a TON of weight as I have not been able to eat in 5 days. Today an angle delivered me some dairy queen ice cream and it has done the trick. my apatite is coming back.
On day 5 I took a shower - seems so simple yet took a staff of 4 to help me.just a few moment on my legs and I was ready to pass out...
I seen my self for the first time naked.... was like seeing me for the first time... words fail me now.
I have a completely different perspective of what post-op ts people have had to endure - its like crossing the biggest dessert for your cure potion, and the having to bring it back too for the doctor to work his magic and THEN you must have enough left in you to survive.
Hell has nothing on me...
for 4 days I laid thinking.... what the hell did I just do? its a dark time laying helpless... you question everything....
seeing my self in the shower for that moment made it all worth while.
I can handle the rest now...
more later
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