Sunday, August 8, 2010
I was thinking this morning when I got up, I take for granted that I do not have to worry about my beard anymore... or other issues of passing. However, in those first years, I felt that, every time I went out, I wanted to make the most of EVERY moment to express my new lease on life to dress and "be" feminine in my presentation.
Looking over this woman's pictures, in most of them, she'd be wearing what I would consider business attire for a board room, or a female attorney to wear to court in many poses from all over - from the side of the high way, to the woods, to the beaches.... there she was - looking spectacular among the slums of little china town, and not at all fitting in with her environment or the other common appropriate dress of geographical area, temperature, let a lone for the beach.
People sometimes wonder why they stand out looking like a "GenderVariant Individule" (GVI) - this is the reason. Most women do not do these things, unless you are Ms.Roper from 3's company or Tammy Faye Baker.
Granted - there are times where you will be on your way to somewhere and you just happen to click a picture and it looks out of place - but, this is not the case of the behavior I am describing.
For many Part time GVI's, they feel "any" opportunity to get out "dressed", (even if its to pump gas), its FINALLY the chance to wear those rhinestone jeans with white heels... The Part-time GVI''s are not alone - I have noticed even some Full-time pre/post-op TransWoman doing this, as well. That is to say, rather than being practical, they HAVE to put on their makeup, earrings -and- make sure their nails are done before they can even get up to do lawn work in the morning.
When one goes out to dinner, a comedy club, dancing, theater, conferences, dates... these are the things I would consider ladies (and guys) get gussied up for.
I just had to pause at these pic's - not because she looked bad , not becasue she didn't pass, not becasue she wasn't beautiful... she was. It was because this was another form of cross dressing behavoir - Its what I refered to as "Crossing OVER Dressing". Its when someone has (or is) working on going Full-time and is still expressing themselves through their clothes for validation or plain out right reaction of others, and are not yet comfortable with who they are to just "be" themselves and slip on a t-shirt, shorts and head out and mow the lawn, without having to put on a show for... well... themselves.
I've caught myself doing this... and even NON-GenderVariant people too.